the sun also rises

Again i was awake two hours after my initial doze off… its been frequent this days. I am not sure if it is because of the new work or because of the other engagements that I have been letting myself get into. But hey I am coping and I will be sleeping my dayoff away soon. Owing lots of sleeptime again. But anyways I feel fine now and I dont think the lack of sleep is killing me.. oh well it is killing me softly - so I am giving my body a gift.. I will cut down on smoking … quit sometime soon.. phase out time for that nasty habit not that I dont love the habit .. I do.. I am giving my body a gift and giving my clothes the rest from the perpetual smell… A useful and healthy new move for me. Again not that it will be a zealous move just a gradual phasing out. How are these for effacement.  As for the sleep…  I will  get it.. in time… Anyways .. not being able to sleep anymore I got to play with my niece who wanted to watch the little mermaid. Cable was down; phone was down too. Little mermaid it is… I liked that sappy disney movie anyways.. always liked the orchestral music. reminds me of better days…   I dont remember as much of the plot before but I was reminded that she actually had to sacrifice her voice just for the chance to be with her loved one. A chance at that. No surety just a chance..   Then it came to me.. aw shucks i’ve done that.. sacrifice something that one could almost not live without for true love. But really, how many true loves can I get into in this short short lifetime of mine. ( Nina it really seem like its 57000 years now) And I’ve been in love and not out of any that I had the stupidity to get into and more stupidity not to fall out of. And I have been offering irretrievable parts of me that I know if I fall for again - the only thing that I can now offer is either the lint on my back pockets or the filling from one of my teeth. Prolific I may have been.. ok ok ok  change the tenses.. prolific I may be. I know that every single one of them had been special and unique in their own way and will carry with me for the rest of my life.  So on to the next challenge……packing my lint now and preparing the deed of owenrship he he heh

I cant think of a title for this one right now. but i see the sun rising….