Of Wishes and Promises and Baggages

“Give me a sign. Any sign… That I may love you with all my heart and all my mind and all my soul.”

              
I give this to the one I dedicate my second thought for the day.

              
When you realize that you want to spend the rest of your life with someone. You do not wait for another eternity to be together. You want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible. It has to be you. No one else.

               
Third comes easy.

                  
I may have come a day late a dollar short but I promise to catch up a million times for the times when I was not there yet, when we havent met yet.

                    
Fourth flows out like water.

        
I don’t know what you think of me coz I only know that I want to keep you safe. Keep you warm. Shower you with kisses and make you happy for the rest of your life.

                  
Fifth.

               
I feel empty with out you. The mere thought that you are not mine pains me. If these words could only convey how many sleepless nights I spent thinking of you, the listless hours and days I spend wondering what you are doing or if you are fine. 
         
        
Sixth is a promise.
        
    
That I will forever be faithful and loving. Cherishing you and you alone. You are the star that guides me in the night. The beacon which I will forever go towards.

             
Seventh is my hope.

                
That one day you will be mine and you will think of me as yours and yours alone.

                         
As I keep on wondering if this will ever come to pass. I will not stop living. I will not stop loving. I will not stop. But I will stay away because it is asked of me.
In time I hope to be with you and hope that all my dreams and wishes come true….

                      
Give me a sign… any sign…. anything that will tell me that I need be there because I will…. If I have to wait forever then let forever come to pass and I will be there.
          
      
How is that for devotion. Just a momentary imbalance. Had another chance encounter that I could not avoid. I fled though, knowing that it was more a burden when I am in your presence. And as much as I would like to bask in your embrace… be always within your light.. protect you from anything and everything that may do you the least of harm… I dare not ….. else I get lost again.. And while I want to be lost in you. Its not my calling yet. Though truth be told this is the most honest and undisguised thought that I could possibly had written down. I leave this un-uttered and banished to this journal. Possibly unread. Likely trashed.
                     
               
Lesson:
In life sometimes one travels with baggages…. some baggages you lose along the way..some you carry all your life to cherish. And though it may not really hold joy or any happiness in it. It holds one thing. HOPE. I guess that is more than enough.

                       
Done in 14 mins..Im slowing down.